In Oregon's Willamette Valley, this weekend has brought us quite a windstorm. The high winds – and higher gusts – first hit early Saturday morning.
Amidst the storm, I heard crick-crick-crack – crick-crick-crack – crick-crick-CRACK!
Immediately, I was fully awake, but it was too dark to see anything outside. I kept waiting to hear something hit the roof or the ground,. But all I heard was the wind wailing.
Did a branch break off and fall? Or, perhaps, was it just barely hanging on?
Under great pressure, it can be easy to wonder whether we'll break. We think we might. But most often, we don't.
When we're facing a loss such as death, our sense or belief that we're at risk, in danger of losing everything, is very uncomfortable. If we're not used to sitting with discomfort, we might try to dampen the feeling in various ways. Some people use alcohol or other mind-altering substances, TV or online screen time, shopping or risky behavior.
Rather than trying to avoid the uncomfortable feeling or the body sense, though, you might try to sit with it, or draw it. Even have a conversation with it. There are many ways to face it rather than trying to stuff it down. You may or may not become "friends" with it, but you may learn what it's trying to tell you. And that can start to ease your uncomfortable feelings.
May you find ways to make peace with the cracking noises inside you that are telling you that you might break. You are stronger than you know.
P.S. I found the tree that fell. I can't get very close (the above photo is cropped), but I think it's about 14 or 16 inches in diameter. ~M